“The death of a mother is the first sorrow wept without her”
Once again I have no Monday vase to share with you. Instead only the tragic news that my lovely mother passed away last week. Words are hard for me right now – emotions are running high and my life feels rather empty. It has been a long couple of months as she went in and out of hospital – the recent joy of her return home quickly evaporated as it became clear that her condition was deteriorating rapidly and another trip into hospital was not an option. Her final days were peaceful and she slipped away when it was just the two of us together. As an only child our relationship has always been intense and I am relieved that I was with her at the end.
This has been a glorious autumn but it has slipped past me in a blur of hospital wards, doctors and a new found medical language of conditions, medications and treatments. The ensuing emptiness now that it is all over is hard to bear and as her many friends and relatives contact me to share their grief I keep going to pick up the phone to her to say ‘guess who I have just spoken to’ as I would in the old days – only to realise that she is no longer at the end of the line as she has been all my life.
Life will carry on though and I know that the sun will shine again, although it may never feel quite the same without her. Her funeral is next week and then we will celebrate the festive season quietly, getting used to our smaller family group. After that I will start to pick up the threads of my life again – seed sowing season will be upon me and there will be a new year to welcome in.
Following on from my recent post about the Green & Gorgeous cutting garden I have finally found a few minutes to sit down and pull together my thoughts on Day 2 of the Wedding Flower Intensive Course hosted by Green & Gorgeous and The Garden Gate Flower Company that I attended back in June. I […]
This week I am starting a new series called Wedding Wednesday, which will run up to the wedding I am preparing for in mid July. I am planning to practice a selection of the arrangements I am going to make on a weekly basis and share the results with you. Last weekend I was very […]
Today I am linking to the intriguing meme Garden Bloggers Foliage Day (GBFD) hosted by Christina at My Hesperides Garden. Foliage plays a very important role in my developing garden, so by joining in with GBFD on the 22nd of each month I will have the perfect opportunity to concentrate on this aspect of my […]
Just a quick post for ‘Flowers On Sunday’ tonight – I am busy cooking a roast for the family and need to save time for Downton Abbey later! I have been playing around with a few dahlias this afternoon, so thought I would share my photos. The first is one of my favourites that I […]
Welcome to my slightly late review of September – as September was such a busy month for me I am starting with a few personal highlights this time, as well as lots of photos from the garden. After a very shaky start weather-wise, September has been a glorious month here in Suffolk – a true […]
Welcome to ‘In A Vase On Monday’ when I am linking up with Cathy at Rambling In The Garden to share a vase of flowers picked from my garden every Monday. Although the temperatures have remained high this week there has been a distinct shift in the feel of the garden. Autumn is making […]